Me: Well hello there..
Friend: Hello.. Um.. Who is this?
Me: It’s me Julie, the owner of this blog….
Friend: Um there is a blog here??I thought it was just where some old post from July went to die..
Haha. Well that is the conversation I’ve had with several people since I stopped writing back in July. Yes, July 2011, that hot month people in Arizona hate. Hmm.. Im sure you’re all curios about the reason I stopped writing… That’s a difficult answer, but here goes…
1) I was really unhappy with my day job like unable to pull myself out of bed. I’m happy to say that has turned around a bit due to a new job
2) moving my business killed me…. Truth time: I let it. I haven’t connected with clients here. For many reasons: some $$(a lot $), not being confident, and people refusing to provide me with a hot meal.. If I hear that one again I may spew molten lava out of my nose (not sure how it works but it could happen)
3) failure: yes, I felt that constant voice in my head. Tack on being exhausted, hating your job and losing passion. Have I failed at photography? In some ways yes, I’ve decided to no longer photograph weddings. It was my passion for years the pickle to my wine (what? Wine and pickles is odd? Try awesome!) or the chocolate to my wine (better?), but I don’t have the strength to carry on. Nor the energy to photograph everything for free aka huge discount (its a whole different rant, but people who own business are trying to take care of themselves, family and stay afloat. Don’t forget that people!)
4) I couldn’t admit any of this to anyone or the jealousy I felt for those succeeding. Let’s just say its been a dark place, but I’m putting it behind me. I photographed my last wedding a week ago and I feel relief. I have this space, my blog where I can start over, where I can go back to the days of this being a blog filled with writing, just photographs of whatever, and things I’m loving posts. There will be new things too.. Like… Cooking…crafting…pickles? Maybe pickles… Gosh they are delicious…
I hope you’ll stay, follow along, and share your stories. Because its time to move on and leap to new adventures. Whose ready to leap with me?
The best pickles ever and of course they are from Texas!
by juliebranyan
Farrah - Look forward to see more posts from you! Miss you Julie!
Emily Snitzer - Glad you’re back
Smile and find what you love and be confident in it! You rock, girl.
Emily - Can we hold hands and scream like 6 year olds when we do?—-Then I am game.
Kimberly Pardi - Yay!! Glad you’re back. I’m sorry to hear about the dark place (believe me, I’ve been to mine too…maybe kinda still there in some ways), but I’m happy to see that you’re refusing to let it kill everything you’re passionate about. Look forward to following your stories, photos, & writing again. It’s inspiring!